Sunny San Jose

Being back in San Jose is really great! 70 degrees in January, its just great. I realized how much I was going to miss it here when my semester is over. This is the first time I've been on my own, so I think I will always have some strange connection to San Jose now, I'm going to miss all the new little independent things I do here.. going food shopping, going to the bank, my little daily drives to work and school.. All the little dumb things :-P

The thing is once I leave I don't have much of a reason to come back, I mean San Jose isn't exactly a place one goes for vacation, and even If I wanted to come back to visit a couple friends It would be different. This semester I'm determined to make my last months here better than the first, I didn't go out all the much before and I haven't really experienced the surrounding Areas.. I'd like to take more trips to San Fran, and I was told to go to Big Sur too.. I need to start some planning!

Oh and check out this picture I took from the flight over here, it was such a clear night you could see all the way down nearly the whole way.

This was somewhere over Ohio, we flew real close to Chicago too, but it was a little more cloudy and all the lights just made the sky look orange.

Time Cliche

hmm.. you know how time always seems to go by super fast and yet at the same time it passes slowly? I can look back and analyze my break and say it feels like forever ago when I stepped off the plane, but in the same instance it also feels like I just got here.

Tonight got me thinking about time, I got together with some friends that were very close to me a few years ago, but I haven't seen or spoken with for a while.. It made me so sad to see how things have changed, not to say that I'm unhappy where I am or where I'm going. I guess I just wish I could go back to it once in a while, and then jump back to the present. I'm sure many people wish they could back in time, oh well.

Its too bad you can't ever experience something the same way twice.. even If I could go back, knowing my experiences would just make that same time different anyway.

..yeah well it was nice to reminisce, time is just so strange!

Discontented

Now that I'm home in NY I feel hollow? unsettled? discontented? definitely a little bit mixed up. I really missed being back home, but I think that I possibly created some glamorous image of what being home would be like...blah. Now that I'm here, I would much rather be back in California so I could just start missing NY again. This bothers me, because I know that I will be right back in NY once my student exchange is over in May - that means living with my parents. I hate that I cant afford my own place, I know that they will help me if I want to move out, but not being independent from them makes me feel guilty, like I owe them somthing.

..I geuss for now I should just try to look forward to getting back to school in California, I think if I organize myself I will feel much better about everything. I'll make a plan, and I need to start being healthier too.. maybe its all this holiday eating and being lazy that is bumming me out.

I want to say I feel a little better, but I'm just anxious to get back to San Jose and get started.